Dear Diary,
See, here's my thing. I have imagination. Sometimes it is over-active. I talk myself into believing something haunts me in my apartment. Or that theoretically, ghosts, ghouls, monsters, etc do not exist, but in the silent darkness....well, that part of my childhood never left me.
So being as imagination is a very large part of life, (to me, anyway), I utilize it frequently in dreaming of the future. You can probably guess where this is going, Diary. I like to imagine who will be with me in that future. When I have no one to place in that picture, is it wrong to place people who will not, in real life, actually fill that spot?
For instance, I have (in my mind) lived out a day as the wife of many celebs. Taylor Hicks, Ryan Seacrest, Bruce Willis, Frank Sinatra, Bing Crosby. But I don't limit such pictures to celebrities. "Crush," as I have come to refer to him, is one of those place-holders. "Radar" may be as well. Even So-And-So from that one summer long ago.
Is there a problem with place-holders in our imagination? Or those "harmless crushes" when nothing serious is on the horizon? Is it ok of me to immediately place a new acquaintance in that picture to see how he looks? Personally I think that's natural. It doesn't have to be a serious pontification, just a picture.
Who does tomorrow's picture hold, I wonder...
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