Dear Diary,
Yesterday I went shopping with my sister at a warehouse called Mouse Surplus. We really got some great deals while we were there. That was due to the rather handsome fellow that ran the place. I noticed that he did an awful lot of smiling (which is good salesmanship, I suppose), but he apparently did quite a bit of winking at my sister, too. :) He was funny and sarcastic. Strong, as he lifted our cabinets into the waiting truck. These are all good qualities to possess. It was the cigarette hanging out of his mouth that made it difficult to care whether I ever saw him again.
However, I haven't quite figured out what feature in particular caused it, but he made us both think of my first real boyfriend. Not sure if it was the smile or the natural charm. Could have been the way he carried himself. Not real sure, but it got me to thinking about Erik again and missing him. Not in the way that I miss other past relationships. Erik passed away just before Christmas. We hadn't been close in years, really but I still remember all those emotions when our relationship first began.
I remember how he knew about my crush and got just as embarrassed as I anytime anyone teased us. Of course, he hadn't given in yet. But somewhere in February, he asked me to dinner and a movie. Then to a Basketball game. Then he put his arm around me. And as he describes it, I froze. I didn't know what was happening because all this time he had not been interested. How on earth could he be asking me to dance at the Friday night dance? None of it made sense, but eventually we got past all of that and had lots of memories to share. I'm glad I got to remember all of that in the face of the salesman...
And actually, it reminds me that I changed Erik's mind about us. So changing one's mind is not impossible. Perhaps if there's someone out their that shares Erik's initial resistance, who's to say that's the end of it? ;) Do you know who I'm thinkin' of? :D
Let's just see what tomorrow holds....
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