Dear Diary,
Last night, while putting up Christmas decorations, my mind started to wander. In fact, it was a very heartwarming evening. I made dinner for my parents and my brother and a friend. I got some cleaning and laundry done. I listened to Christmas music, and I put up the tree. Or a tree, anyway. We might do two this year.
But as I put up the tree, I started to think about the things I'm reading about in this book. I started to think about how confidence is an attractive quality in people. And I started thinking about my 'internal issues.' I think some of those have to do with insecurity and lack of confidence. Because I always find it hard to find the line between confidence and over-confidence. I'm never sure where the line is, so I always err on the side of no confidence.
But as I said yesterday, I'm beginning to feel a bit more empowered every day. And I suddenly felt emboldened to ask a certain someone out. Or to be frank about wanting to go out sometime, anyway. I can't tell you who that is, because I promised I wouldn't think about him anymore. And I really haven't to the extent that I was before. Which is perhaps why I started to feel a little bolder. I kind of want to go out with him just to see if I actually would like him. In my mind, it has kind of turned the corner to wondering if he's good enough for me. Does that make sense?
Well, anyway, perhaps I'll make such sentiments known tomorrow. ...Or I'll be gripped again with insecurity... Who knows what tomorrow holds..."
No comments:
Post a Comment