October 7, 2009

Dear Diary,

Facebook has apparently caught on to our daily confidence. He (aka Facebook) is always telling me about ways to meet guys. Should I find that irritating? Today's suggestion is to find someone who loves tennis.

Seriously?

I think among all the compatible interests that are important to me, tennis is not high on the list. I do like a good volley from time to time, and I really enjoy playing. But it's not often that I just have to play some tennis. And if I did, again, there are plenty of girls I would rather try my hand against than some guy who could knock me out with the speed and velocity of which he can hit the ball. It's almost the same as co-ed softball.

Am I afraid? "No!" screams the inner-sportswoman. But "yes," timidly admits the girly-me. I want him to like sports. And occasionally, I wouldn't mind casually playing with or against him. But it's not important to me to find someone who loves tennis.

But thank you, Facebook, for the suggestion.

Wonder what tomorrow holds...

October 6, 2009

Dear Diary,

Today was an infinitely better day than yesterday. And tomorrow shows much promise. In fact, after dinner at HuHot tonight, my "statement cookie" (because it's more of just a statement than a fortune) said that there is much to be gained from social events right now. I wish I had time for those sorts of activities on a regular basis.

But as it turns out, I am going to the symphony tomorrow. Not too much of a "social event" I suppose as I'm going with about 20 elementary kids...and a few adults. But it's one of those high brow events to put on my social resume. I really miss going to the symphony and to the opera. That was the nice thing about going to school at IU. Stuff like that was always available.

I went to the Opera a few months ago, but it was in a movie theatre and just wasn't the same, in my opinion. And I'm not the type of girl who will expect her man to go to the opera and symphony every time it's in town, but I do think I'd like a man who's open to the idea from time to time. And if he's not, then, I'll bring my Mom or Sis or some other girlfriend.

I can deal with that.

So that's what tomorrow holds...

October 5, 2009

Dear Diary,

Well, I told Radar exactly what I told you the other day. That when things get rough I have the impulse to talk to him. You know what happened? His response was careless and unsatisfactory. So long, Radar...for now.

Of course I broke my own rules by telling him. Anytime I get sentimental with him he turns into a rather boring character. I've said before that I don't understand them.



And then another friend invited me to an event which may have some single guys present. Maybe not. Anyway, the unfortunate thing about this semester is that I simply don't have the time to pursue these kinds of invitations.

And another friend is going to maybe try the Speed Dating experience. What do you think?

We'll see what tomorrow holds...

October 4, 2009

Dear Diary,

This weekend has provided some much needed rest and relaxation, as well as brought order to the new house a little bit. I have also discovered the house I intend to buy, and run 5.5 miles in a very mundane circle. I almost feel ready for the school week.

I will admit that with no "summer vacation" of sorts, this year is proving very difficult to get through. But I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. And although evening activities have had to get put on hold for the time being, I am not yet discouraged about my current social life.

I will say however that although I love my church and my small group very much, I have contemplated for some time trying some place new. Not just for social aspects alone but especially because with the move it has become increasingly harder to make the drive to church every week. And most of my family has begun to settle on one church together. It might be nice to go where they go every week. And the social prospects at this church seem to be much larger.

I'm not talking about just having stuff to do or making new friends because I have that at my home church. I'm talking about the prospect of meeting some single guys there. Apparently there are several. And it's the 5th fastest growing church in the nation.

Mom reported to me today that she found a fella for me at the services this morning. Whether or not she'll ever see him again is unclear but if Mom approves of him, I'm willing to drop by and check him out.

I have however, also been in the mood for Radar to simply relocate to Florida, marry me, and get started on our lives together...

So we'll see what impulses tomorrow might bring...

October 3, 2009

Dear Diary,

So, it's a new month which means a new recipe must be learned. I was thinking instead of trying a meat dish this time, I would try a new pasta recipe, as I seem to be in love with pasta lately. In fact I had a fantastic pasta dish at dinner last night and I'm wondering if it's cheating to try and recreate that dish. At least it would taste good.

I've had a very relaxing and yet productive day today. It's been awhile since I've had a Saturday all to myself. And it was a much-needed day. I'll probably go shopping for the house in a little bit and maybe EPCOT a little later. Depends on how long the productive energy lasts. :)

We'll see what tomorrow holds...

October 2, 2009

Dear Diary,

Another week is over and it's the weekend, again. I went looking at houses tonight. I realize I just moved into a new house, but in case you missed the premise to that, it belongs to Mom and Dad. I'm just renting it temporarily. The plan is to buy a new one before that government program runs out. So that means I need to get moving on it, so we can close before the end of November.

I actually found one that I like tonight. From the outside, anyway. I need to now contact my realtor and have her show me the inside. I think it shows much promise, though and seemingly in the right price range.

Is it intimidating to a guy for a girl to be so settled down already? I mean, career, house, dog. I always imagined marriages beginning with nothing. Right out of college, first jobs, apartment living, buying the dog together...

Just didn't expect to have to wait so long. Honestly, though I'm comfortable with having to know how to live on my own (though I technically never have). I do know how to take care of occasional hassles like oil changes and laying flooring. I just find it tedious and to be more of the man's job.

I'm not saying I have it all together. I'm just wondering if he wants to put it together instead.

Wonder what tomorrow holds...

October 1, 2009

Dear Diary,

You have probably gathered from recent entries that I am becoming increasingly exhausted and frustrated. And not all of that is the singleness of my life. Frankly, besides these conversations between you and me, I rarely think about it. Much else consumes my thoughts throughout most of the day. But when that's the case, I can't help but want to call Radar and talk to him about everything that's happening. It's an impulse that has never really gone away.

And I'm not sure why that's an impulse for me. I mean he's been one of my closest friends for approximately 12 years. But whenever I do get to talk to him about the stress I'm feeling on any given occasion, he never responds the way I want him to. I'm not even sure what kind of response I'm looking for. He's always been a good listener, but for some reason he never has the right thing to say.

Like many guys, he'll possibly try to "fix" the situation. Sometimes, I just want to get it out, not get it fixed. Or he simply doesn't have the sympathy I'm looking for.

Frankly, that's just me being a girl and not understanding guys, and guys not understanding girls. But even so, I never get the satisfaction I'm looking for by taking my concerns to my occasional "soul mate."

Sure would like to talk to him, though.

Perhaps tomorrow....